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Looking at all sides

Someone once told me, that I'm too goody good... I had no idea what it meant. Did it mean for me to learn how to be bad? Or that I'm trying too much to be good? I know myself and my abilities to do bad. I've lost a year and to my thought, the questions remained... I see the negative things around me. I'm not blind. I said to myself, do people like to hear bad news? I guess, they do. I don't. Hearing the bad news gives me the responsibility to act. If I know there is a problem, I urge myself to do something about it. I feel guilty when I don't... I'm an obvious type A person. Sometimes I don't agree. I genuinely think that I've motivated myself on some level. To do something somehow. My thoughts are kinda cloudy at times. Or even too deep... When you look around, you hear whats around you, you feel whats there. Then you realize, You are there to do something about it... You are not numb or dumb. You are not blind or deaf. You have a heart,,, a heart.....